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14 May 2005 @ 01:56 pm
Meh, birthdays. Always make me think about how old I'm getting...and how I haven't made a difference yet.
18 April 2005 @ 04:44 pm
Haha, well, last night I said I was thinking about going to my own webserver for blogging, and look what I did?


I win! So from now on, if you want to see whats going on with me, you can come see at my new home!

(also, I'm working on a digital photography album, and some other non-blog related stuff, so if anything, you should check it out for that, even if you don't care what goes on with me)
18 April 2005 @ 01:36 am
Hrm...I don't know if I like LJ anymore...I think I may try my hand at putting together my own blog site, with my own domain and everything...chronicle my adventures...post my digipics...post my favorite playlists...

Eh, that would take effort. And...me is lazy. Meh, oh well.
Current Music: Elliot Smith - Angeles
03 February 2005 @ 10:31 am
That's right kiddies, I'm quitting school. I've been in for 4 years and need a break. I'm moving in with my parents and working as a design artist for the newspaper there. Hopefully, going to pay off a good chunk of my student loans, as well as my credit card debt, and possibly get some money to put down on a car. Something that runs much more reliably, and starts on the first try.

If you want to get a hold of me, drop me an email at mattlindell@mac.com. Until Apple takes their laptop back (I've been working for Apple for the last couple months, but have to quit) that will be my reliable, everyday email. I'll still check it after they take the laptop, but it won't be my favorite anymore. My cell phone will still work, but service is spotty at our house, so if I don't answer its not cause I don't like you...or maybe it is?
08 November 2004 @ 04:51 am
Hey, I'm not dead. I'm at the computer lab, its 4:51 AM, I have another can of rockstar to hold me over til morning, and I feel like shit. I've been up for *almost* 24 hours, with at least 12 more to go. Damn projects.

Speaking of: I changed my major back in August. Again. I can't remember if I've posted that in the last few months. I'm studying graphic design now, which means I get to do all kinds of fun art stuff. Except for the fun part. Well, thats not true...its just not fun being up all night.

My dad was here this last weekend for Dads Weekend...which suprisingly wasn't that bad. It was actually kinda handy to have him here, since my PC went kapoot on me Friday night. Evidentally, the motherboard wasn't really rated to handle the new processor I put in it a month ago, and I popped 6 capacitors on it. So today, instead of doing homework, I drove to Wilsonville and bought a new motherboard, then came home and got the stupid machine running again.

Saw Drew Carey perform Friday night with some of the guys from Who's Line. It was pretty funny...Colin Mochrie and Drew did an improv blindfolded on a stage of live mousetraps. Hehe, Drew was like "fuck fuck fuck sonofa..." I laughed, my dad didn't. Oh well, he's old.

Hmmkay, I think its time to buckle back down and do some work. If I can focus, at least. Oi.
Current Mood: insane
Current Music: The random bits of songs in my head
15 August 2004 @ 03:10 pm
So I have my new place, and new to me couches to go in it...all I need now is a roommate.  I really wish I could magically just make all my crap here teleport to my new place...I hate the actual act of moving.  I think I'm gonna try to do most of the small stuff in the evenings this week.  Then maybe take Friday off, and take my bigger shit over.  Honestly, I only have my desk, bed, dresser, bike, my computer chair, and a storage thingy that won't fit in my car.  Hopefully I can move everything except those pieces by Friday...or at least have it all packed up and ready.  I'm really hoping that moving will help me forget about the last 4 months.  I mean, I really want to put an end to the last couple months...I have a new major now, a new apartment, a newfound comfort with where I am.  I just still have memories in this house...memories that won't stop haunting me.  I look around and I see her.  And I hate it.  I've tried everything I could to forget her, and I think it'll actually work once I get out of this house and into somewhere different.  A new place to make new memories.

Maybe that's why I've moved so much in the past...I'm such a sensory person...once I make memories in a place its so hard for me to push those memories aside.  I relive the past every time I walk into my room here...every time she was here with me.  Hell, she hasn't been here for almost a month, but I still have the memory of the scent of her hair...it haunts me.  I gave my heart to her, I gave it willingly and freely, as I thought she did too.  But I guess people lie, people say things to make others happy, instead of really being true.  Is that to much to ask for, for someone to just be truthful with me, to be honest about what they're thinking and feeling?  To just tell me where they are emotionally, so as to not lead me on and then leave me bent and broken?
Current Music: Radiohead - Motion Picture Soundtrack
10 August 2004 @ 05:39 pm
So, big news in my life today.  Switched my major (AGAIN) to graphic design.  Its gonna be tough, but it'll be fun too, and really rewarding to create stuff, instead of analyze everything.

Now, you may be asking, "Why does this effect me?"  Well, I'm gonna make my LJ the place where I put my art so that you all can tell me I suck, or if I rock.  Either one. :-)

So, later tonight after I hang out with a buddy who's down from Portland, I'm gonna put up stuff from my first art class I've ever taken.  Its an adobe illustrator class, so its a bunch of vector-based images, but I think they're pretty cool, so watch out for em! (Oh, and I'll be sure to LJ-cut them...otherwise I'm sure I'd get some choice words for people that don't want their windows cluttered with my drawrings.)
Current Music: Sting and The Police - Message In A Bottle
09 August 2004 @ 01:06 am
Well, this is going to be an initial short update that will serve as a place holder for the whole shebang, soon to come.

I was in a relationship, and now I'm out.  It ended badly for me.  But now, like the following song lyrics (which I LOVE) say, I'm movin' on.

Rascal Flatts - I'm Movin' On

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
Current Music: Rascal Flatts - I'm Movin' On
01 July 2004 @ 10:48 pm
Yes, I am alive. Barely. Especially today.

I accidentally undercooked some meat last night but ate it anyway. I'm dumb. I was really really food poisoned all day. Not fun at all.

Anyway, my body hates me right now, so I'm gonna go to bed. Maybe I'll post again sometime soon.
Current Mood: sick
10 May 2004 @ 04:54 am
So that's why they call it falling....
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent